Stressed. And slightly freaked.

I'mma just gonna blow some steam off for a few minutes, mkay?

I'm not really stressed at people at the moment, but for the past couple of weeks I've been having this underlying feeling of unrest related to school, work, upcoming work, etc. I've been working like a madwoman on my medical transcription stuff, and sometimes I wonder if I'm even cut out for it. (This may or may not be coinciding with some homework that got returned with a poor grade that had to be redone...) I'm also freaking out because I'm trying to finish a 12-week class in 9 weeks, and there's a wedding this Saturday, I'm still cleaning houses and working at DQ, I'll be in Florida for 10 days in April, and I wanted to go with a friend to Chicago for a day (take the train and make a day of it sort of thing), but my time is getting shorter and shorter and I'm steadily getting more freaked out because of the imminence of it all. *deep breath* Granted, this is the 5th week and I'm working on Week 7 stuff, but it still seems quite overwhelming.

At work lately (on a side note, I'm leaving DQ in about 3 weeks to get ready for leaving in May O.o) my employer has been alternately telling me that I don't do enough cleaning/restocking during slow times and that I'm doing too much cleaning/restocking when we suddenly go from slow to busy. I feel like I'm trying really hard to please, and as long as I do everything right I don't get a word (positive or negative) spoke to me, but the moments that I slip up instantly get pounced upon. I know my employer is a busy guy, trying to make his business work to the best of his ability, and I don't blame him for trying to run things efficiently. It's just.....I'm trying hard to stay busy, gosh darnit. It's hard to do that when one day I'm told to stay only at my register and then next I'm staying at my register too much.

Over the past month I've had 2 guys trying to get me to go out with them (one showed up at church on a Sunday afternoon and asked Pastor for my phone number because I wasn't there, and then showed up at my work the next day *facepalm*). I feel like I'm in this really awkward/picky stage where I'm not interested in hardly anyone to begin with, and all the guys who show interest are not my type at ALL. So first off I'm stuck trying to explain why I don't want to go out with someone, and then I feel bad for turning them down and wonder if I'm being overly picky.

And I need friends, dangit. My best friend is moving to Florida after Saturday and I'll have only one close friend my age who lives within 2 hours. Do you know how depressing that is? I'm sure that going to Colorado isn't going to help that much, because I'll just have more friends and acquaintances spread out all over the place, but sheesh. Growing up is rotten, because all of your friends move away and work/go to school/raise families all the time. *feels like Calvin right now*

Oy. It kinda felt good to complain for a bit. XD Now it's back to the daily grind of transcribing...