Apologies for blipping out, random Internet folks...but hopefully things have calmed down and suchness. O.e
I stopped the daily drawings, but WILL finish that for sure. It's just a matter of...y'know...sitting down and doing them. Sigh.
So in the past week or so that I've been out of the loop, I've obtained a desk (for free!) and painted said desk. It's HUGE. And amazing. I can't wait to stick it in my room. *glee*
Tomorrow I have a job interview--we're still cleaning houses of course, but I need a bit more income on the side. Second job, here we come!
A friend invited me over to her house twice last week--both she and her mom have been indispensable in helping me get out of this rut of 'woe is me', plus I really enjoy talking with them about theology and general life stuff. They have a beautiful church where I went for their Good Friday service...plus they feed me cookies whenever I go over to her house. What is it with all the cookies? :p (Just kidding, they're delicious.)
In other news...I've had lots of thoughts banging around in my head. But when it comes time to write them down, the subject matter is too controversial, vitriolic in nature (due to the occasional flashes of anger--I've never had anger issues before O.o), or I don't know enough about it. So instead of spouting online, it helps to read and research and maybe jot down a few notes for me personally.
I've been toying with the thought lately (inwardly) that 'those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind', and thinking of using it for an excuse to say whatever I feel like, without regard for feelings or other people's opinions. That is, not gossiping or spouting untruths, but saying the truth and actually standing for it no matter who gets offended. And while in theory that can be a noble idea, in practice it's a lot trickier and harder to navigate. This is especially hard when I stir up some crap, and then think later during the backlash that I'm tired of defending my position to people that really don't matter that much anyway.
The balance to strike, I suppose, is knowing when to stick to the truth no matter what, and when to bow out gracefully.
But if Jesus is to be our standard...He wasn't exactly one to 'bow out gracefully'. When people did something wrong, He called them out (and used some pretty strong language at times to do so--calling hypocritical people 'sons of snakes', 'whitewashed tombs', and overturning tables doesn't exactly smack of meek and mild. I appreciate that Jesus WAS meek (which is not synonymous with mild, by the by), but He was also strong and decisive).
So...hold one's tongue in the matter of truth, or call people out and hold to a standard? My main problem is sticking to a standard of truth in my mind, but holding back verbally a lot of the time unless something is way out of line.
Urgh. Convoluted thoughts are convoluted. I need to start writing my thoughts more so they don't just pour out all lumpy and confusing. Essays may be in order.
In the meantime...have a blessed Easter, folks, and hopefully things will be back up and running soon.
I stopped the daily drawings, but WILL finish that for sure. It's just a matter of...y'know...sitting down and doing them. Sigh.
So in the past week or so that I've been out of the loop, I've obtained a desk (for free!) and painted said desk. It's HUGE. And amazing. I can't wait to stick it in my room. *glee*
Tomorrow I have a job interview--we're still cleaning houses of course, but I need a bit more income on the side. Second job, here we come!
A friend invited me over to her house twice last week--both she and her mom have been indispensable in helping me get out of this rut of 'woe is me', plus I really enjoy talking with them about theology and general life stuff. They have a beautiful church where I went for their Good Friday service...plus they feed me cookies whenever I go over to her house. What is it with all the cookies? :p (Just kidding, they're delicious.)
In other news...I've had lots of thoughts banging around in my head. But when it comes time to write them down, the subject matter is too controversial, vitriolic in nature (due to the occasional flashes of anger--I've never had anger issues before O.o), or I don't know enough about it. So instead of spouting online, it helps to read and research and maybe jot down a few notes for me personally.
I've been toying with the thought lately (inwardly) that 'those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind', and thinking of using it for an excuse to say whatever I feel like, without regard for feelings or other people's opinions. That is, not gossiping or spouting untruths, but saying the truth and actually standing for it no matter who gets offended. And while in theory that can be a noble idea, in practice it's a lot trickier and harder to navigate. This is especially hard when I stir up some crap, and then think later during the backlash that I'm tired of defending my position to people that really don't matter that much anyway.
The balance to strike, I suppose, is knowing when to stick to the truth no matter what, and when to bow out gracefully.
But if Jesus is to be our standard...He wasn't exactly one to 'bow out gracefully'. When people did something wrong, He called them out (and used some pretty strong language at times to do so--calling hypocritical people 'sons of snakes', 'whitewashed tombs', and overturning tables doesn't exactly smack of meek and mild. I appreciate that Jesus WAS meek (which is not synonymous with mild, by the by), but He was also strong and decisive).
So...hold one's tongue in the matter of truth, or call people out and hold to a standard? My main problem is sticking to a standard of truth in my mind, but holding back verbally a lot of the time unless something is way out of line.
Urgh. Convoluted thoughts are convoluted. I need to start writing my thoughts more so they don't just pour out all lumpy and confusing. Essays may be in order.
In the meantime...have a blessed Easter, folks, and hopefully things will be back up and running soon.
That is definitely a hard balance to find.
ReplyDeleteI used to be afraid of posting some status' because I felt like it applied to many people's lives and so I didn't want to offend them, because everyone is different and we can't approach others in the way we can someone else. I finally decided that I just simply did not care if people got offended or not, especially if it had nothing to do with them. The truth, even when spoken out of love, can be real hard to hear. The good thing about it being spoken out of love, is that people can just be trying to help instead of harm.
Then there is sometimes when we just have to flat out tell people like it is, if it's our place. We just have to be careful not to point fingers all the time and become judgemental of course. And that's where telling the truth out of love comes in handy.
I don't even know if I'm making sense right now. Maybe I should go to bed. haha.
btw, it's nice to see you back! :D
Oh, one more thing. Oh never mind. that probably wouldn't make sense either. haha. whatever. I'm just gonna quit. XD
Love,
~Lizard :)